I Alone

It is 4:15 in the morning.  I don’t want to go to sleep yet.  I came across a Facebook post from the Jesus Loves You facebook page.  It was a dating story about how these two people from Indiana met on a Christian dating site called ChristianCAFE, fell in love, and got married.  I feel like if I was to join a Christian dating website, I would be a hoax.  So it got me thinking…what if I could create a dating website for people with New Age, Paganism, Wiccan, Buddhism, and other non-traditional spiritual beliefs?  I know people like me who have these beliefs are like a minority, but seriously, there’s Jewish dating, Christian dating, Catholic dating, and even Islam dating websites!   I feel like we have been forgotten about in the dating site market. 

I feel like I’m alone and walking this path alone because of my belief system.  If you are just tuning into this blog, I call my belief system Christian Spiritualism.  I believe in Jesus Christ and have accepted him as my savior, but I also have some Paganism beliefs, as well as Catholicism and Buddhist beliefs.  I guess I could be lumped in as a “new ager” but I don’t feel so new age.  If I was to join a Christian dating site, I bet I would get a lot of e-mails from people who want to burn me at the stake because I read tarot cards. 

They say a good, healthy relationship works if you are on the same wave length belief wise.  And it is especially important that your partner shares these beliefs if you are to have kids together.  I’ve dated Atheists, Agnostics, Catholics, Christians, and a couple of Wiccans.  These people helped shape my belief system to what it is today (well maybe not the Atheist, because I do believe in a God/force bigger than us).  But I still feel alone because I cannot lump myself as something.  I feel like there will never be someone who “gets me” in a spiritual way and can’t make that big spiritual connection.

But I guess non-traditional spiritual belief people must think outside of the box when it comes to dating, so there isn’t a need for it.  I bet what those beliefs have in common is that they will manifest/attract the person that is for their highest good and it will happen in Divine timing.  But wouldn’t it be nice to take the timing into our own hands? J What if they were in my situation: can’t drive and go out to New Age bookstores/shops, the psychic fairs in the area are attended mostly by women and if there are any men at these fairs, they are either gay or they are the husband being dragged along, and all of their friends were from Agnostic/Atheist or Christian backgrounds.  How do non-traditional spiritual belief people meet one another if it’s not via a computer?

OkCupid makes me feel weird.  There are a bunch of Atheist/Agnostic people on that site.  When I put I read tarot cards on my profile, it doesn’t generate many responses because “I’m crazy”.

I think this will be posted in Relationsh*ts and my tarot blog.  But this is just some random late night/early morning rambling.  It is time to go to bed!

Difficulty Finding Love Spread

I was bored tonight and kept thinking about how unsuccessful I've been with romantic relationships in the past.  I haven't had much luck finding someone who is way into me as much as I would be into them, I keep running into men who basically just want to get in my pants.  So I made a new tarot spread and tried it out tonight.  Here's the spread and my reading :)

1. How I present myself to the opposite sex -- The Magician -- I make an impact on those that I meet.  I'm wise beyond my years and they notice I have self-esteem issues.

2. What are my positive traits as a lover? - Six of Pentacles -- I'm very giving.  I wear my heart on my sleeve and I'm kind.  I'm able to keep secrets and be their best friend.

3. What makes me "difficult to love"? -- The Sun -- I can rush into the relationship too fast and fall in love easily.  I can sometimes show too much happiness and enthusiasm.  I don't let the man chase me.

4. What can I do to change? -- Five of Pentacles -- Move on from other romantic losses.  Let the guy do the chasing.  Don't be so available.

5. What kind of men am I attracting? -- Seven of Swords -- Men who are loners, doesn't need a woman by their side all the time, not serious relationship material.

6. What kind of men do I need to attract? -- Knight of Pentacles -- Someone who is cautious, realistic, and hard working.  Someone who will take the relationship seriously and put their heart and soul into me.  Someone who sees me as an important person in their life.

7. When can I expect to meet a new love interest? -- Nine of Pentacles -- Either in September, in the winter, or when the sun is in an Earth sign (Taurus, Virgo, Capricorn)/9 months.

Enjoy! :)

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This is what a full length tarot reading includes:

• Past, Present, and Future 3 card reading
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  *Magical Unicorns oracle
  *The Wisdom of Avalon oracle
  *The Psychic Tarot oracle
  *Archangel Oracle
  *Life Purpose oracle
  *The Romance Angels oracle (this is love focused good for romance and love inquiries!)
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Think Positive!

I just enrolled in a local medical education center/voccational school this week.  I'll be working on getting a certificate in Medical Insurance Billing/Office Administration.  It will only take me 30 weeks (if the good Lord is willing) and I graduate September 7th.

I ran into a post on another website about someone's externship (however they don't go to the school I'm going to).  I left a note on her post and asked what school she went to.  She left me a note back and said that she went to blahblah and that the place I'm going to she heard nothing but bad stuff.  But I am trying not to focus on it.  I went to the school she attended and that school didn't work out for me, and I am hoping this school that I am attending is going to be great for me.  My niece's girl scout troop leader may be one of my instructors so I feel confident that maybe she will be able to help me when she can when I attend.  I was guided to not listen to negative stories and such about the school I am attending.  So I am going to try and think positive.  I will ask for help when I'm struggling.  I will try and bond with my classmates so I may go to them for help as well.  I am going to do something that I have not done since probably elementary school -- and that is putting my all in it and try.

I feel like I need to watch the movie The Other Sister. Juliette Lewis plays a woman with a mental disability and she enrolls in a voccational school after attending a school for disabled people.  Anyways, she does well in the voccational school.  The whole message is you can do whatever you set your mind to.  Nothing can stop you.  There will be challenges but they can be overcomed if you really push yourself and set your mind to your goal.  You just gotta think positive.

In other news, I will be shutting down Samantha's Readings.  I just don't have the money for a domain and a hosting service.  I've also lost interest in reading for people.  I don't feel comfortable reading for others, except for close friends and family.  Tarot will just remain a hobby.  If I feel the need to return to reading for others, I will let you know.  I will still have this blog, and will write down my spiritual/metaphysical experiences and share tarot readings and spreads I make from time to time.

I also have started another blog called Relationsh*ts.  It is a love/dating/romance blog.  Me and two of my girl friends write in it.  However, I am thinking about ending that blog because no one seems committed to write in it, we're not getting a lot of hits, and I don't know how much time I will have to write about love and stuff.  Also, I am kind of taking a break from dating just so I can focus on school.

Oh, and another reason to be positive, a recent tarot reading I gave myself:

Knight of Cups (past), Wheel of Fortune (present), and King of Pentacles (future).

Think Positive Sam!!!!!!!

Do you make a wish when you blow out the candles?

Today is my 27th birthday.  At exactly 11:07 PM tonight, the planets will be aligned like the day I was born.  This is called a solar return, in astrology.  A solar return is said to have great power for manifesting.  During your solar return, you meditate and focus on goals and accomplishments and be grateful for the things you have. 
During your solar return it helps to be in a positive place and surrounded by people you love or things you love or doing something you love.  The solar return happens at a different time and sometimes 1 day before, after, or during your birthday each year. 

Tonight, I think I am going to do a tarot reading on myself with this spread:
..................................9
...............................1 8 7
...............................2....6
...............................3 4 5

Card 1: Past influences that are ending or passing out of your life
Card 2: Accomplishments of the past year to reflect on
Card 3: Issues, tasks, or goals carried forward from last year into the coming year
Card 4: Where you are right now
Card 5: New influences that will be coming into your life in the near future
Card 6: Challenges you may face in the coming year
Card 7: Goals that you can achieve in the coming year
Card 8: The overall focus or outlook for the coming year
Card 9: Your birthday gift - a blessing you will receive during the year

I found it out of the book Power Tarot and had pretty accurate readings in the past.

As I blew out my birthday candles, I had two wishes that I hope ends up coming true.  One was to find a job and the other to meet the love of my life.  It would be nice if they both come true, but I'll take 1 out of 2.

Manifesting in Cartoons

I just wanted to show you all this video from the cartoon JEM.  Roxy, a member of the rival band The Mistfits, leaves The Misfits, and is singing about changing her life.  She is manifesting it in a positive way.  She ends up winning the lottery and foolishly spends her money.  But still, if we believe in change, especially in changing ourselves, we can manifest what we desire most.

I put out to the universe on my OkCupid dating profile about what I desire in a man.  I figured it's a good place to tell the universe what I desire.  Although the universe only seems to give us what we need in a relationship, and not what we want.  But it's worth a shot because we can also attract what we need in a relationship.

Push Comes to Shove

Ok, I've been feeling the urge to write.  Or rather, I'm being told by some random guide that I need to write.  What about? All things romance, love, and dating.  I need to tell my story.  But do I do it as a different person going threw the same things that I've been threw, or do I just talk about my love life as me?
I was thinking I could review dating websites as well, ones that people have never heard of.  I would do known ones such as match.com and eHarmony, but I don't have the money or time to waste on those shitty sites.  Although one of my friends did meet "a hook up" from match.com and my cousin met her husband on eHarmony. 

I should do a tarot card reading on this, but I'm lazy.  I'd rather have someone else read me.  I kind of have a love/hate relationship with tarot right now.  I missed it, but it feels like a chore when I have to do a reading.  However, I love it when I find out something I said in the reading is right or a prediction comes to fruition. 

I broke up with J and I never did make that trip out to Wisconsin like I was planning.  I no longer believe in soul mates and twin flames.  Soul mates as in the romantic kind.  I also don't believe in long distant relationships.  So for now on, I'm sticking with local men.

Ok, I'm rambling...I think I'll jot down my ideas on paper and head to bed.  Night!